Something left unsaid..

Something left unsaid...

Yes it's true... Something left unsaid...
Kbhi kbhi aisa hota hai k kuch aisa chlta hai apke dimag me jo ap kisi se share bhi kr skte aur apke dimag vo chiz soch soch k apke dimag ko khokhla kr deta hai...

Jiska asar kuch aisa hota hai k apko kuch smjh nhi ata ...Kya chal ra hai as pass..
Sunai to deta hai smjh b ata hai . .Par kya decision lena chaie kya bolna chaie kuch b smjh ni ata...

Us wqt aisa man krta hai koi kona pakdo aur acche se ro lo.? Apke sath nhi hua kya kbhi? Arey sabke sath hota hai...

Janke ajeeb lgta hoga na kbhi kbhi apko...Me apni har bat likh deti hu .. Kyu? Ajkl kon krta hai personal issue net pe... Kyuki sab friends n family se discuss krne k bad solution nikl ata hai...

Par sach khu... Friends family har samay ap unko sab sach nhi bta skte.... bcz Kuch cheeze ap nhi bta skte... Kuch personal bhi hota hai jo apko tension deti hai...

Vesa hi mere sath ho raha hai...Me pareshan hu bht ..Par kisi ko kh b nhi pa rhi k kya hua hai... Bss kudh ko normal krne ki koshish kr ri hu... K normal insaan k bich me normally behave kru...

Par aisa kb tk kroge ap....Kbhi to over flow hoga ... To mera b ho gya.. glt tym pe glt jgh... Mere senior k samne kuch discuss krte krte I suddenly cried... Without out any reason... Mene us moment ko kisi trah manage kia... Mene kha "M fine" .Mene unko bol dia k nhi mene spicy khaya tha to tears flow down from my eyes...

Although I know my mental state was not fine... Bt khte h na jese duniya chl ri b chalo... Aise royenge to apko loosers smjha jaega...to somehow mene emotions to kuch tym k lie control kr lia...

Still me uske bad b bht bar roi jb b muje koi as pass nhi dikhta to... Kya kru .. Emotions thik se bhe ni the naa...  Ab me bar bar ro bhi nhi skti thi...

Lekin ptani kese mere ek dost ko pta chala k m not fine...  der was some tensions goin on.... Mene usko b tarka dia ye bol k headache h ... Bss ... Chalo acha hai man gya... Vo meri bat... Otherwise fr ro deti....

Pta h m very emotional person from inside bt bahar se strong hu.... one of my friend called me "Lady Singham" bst nick name I ever got.. par har wqt strong rhna is bit difficult fr me... har chiz ka patience bht hai muje..jaldbaji ni hai...par har wqt strong bne rhna not possible ...Mere lie to bilkul b nhi.. isilie bahar se always srrong...Bcz dikhana to vhi hota hai... Mere face ko dekh k koi ye nhi bta paega k andar kuch ghapla chal ra hai....  Bht rare case h jb mere bst frnds phchan jate h... Otherwise koi nhi bol paega k kuch chl ra h..

Aur aj ka din bht acha tha par subha se andr hi andr ghpla chl raha tha.. jo me kisi ko kh b nhi pa rhi thi... I know..Us problem ko mere alawa koi solve nhi kr paega.... Subha se bss koshish hi kr rhi hu k kudh ko bolne ki "STOP CRYING RANJANA...TUM JITNA ROGI UTNA KMZOR PDOGI.."

Pr mene suna h rone se apka dil b  halka hota hai... To vhi to kr ri hu... Glt kya h...  Bss yhi kudh akele me ro rhi hu... With all negative thoughts in my mind... Shant to krna h naa kudh ko..  smjhake kudh ko ..

Pta hai me bht open hu.. khulke bolti hu... Par log iss chiz ko glt way me lay jate hai... Yes..Yaar I m open but I m not characterless.... To unse thoda bachne k lie bhi... Me ab poorani wali Ranjana bnti ja rhi hu...Jo apne life k decisions b nhi le pa rha... Jo aapne dekhta h..Par poora krne ki himmat nhi hai... jo apne parents k lie kuch kr ni pa rha....Jo k negative thoughts se ghiri ja rhi hu...

Ab ap btao kya kru... Hai naa itne sare negative thoughts... To mentally presure to automatically badega hi.... Aur kb tk rakhoge ap usko dil me... Zada dbaoge to flood jaaega....

Aur fr us wqt to silent place b nhi milta... K jhan man bhar k ro lo.... Aur so jao...
Favorite part h mera... Silently ro kisi ko pta b nhi chale aur chup chap so jao...Kisi ko pta b na chale kya hua... Kyu hua ..Kese hua...Kuch b nhi ...

So... Words left unsaid will sit inside your mind Screaming.... That's why few things left unsaid... 😐😶😶

~ Ranjana chakraborty